(for those of u that dont know i am a psych nurse and work casual shifts throughout private and public health services)

i was working at an adult inpatient unit and i was sitting on the couch just talkin and reading and whatever with some of the clients and i just felt that i should have been patient too that i cant do this job anymore that im not being there fully for them to help em out and that i felt rude not that i think i was i got no complaints in fact more talked to me than to any other nurse and thats prob like every other place ive worked at i think they sense im coo coo

this is not new i have felt this for ages i just need to write it cos when i tell other people they tell me bland nice nice things and thats not what i want wait i dont even know what i want

do i want to quit my job?
hang on with depression we get told never to make major decision when unwell

omg when do i get to chose what i want ive been freaking depressed for over 10yrs

i hate this life
i really do