hey I am also new to the whole BP thing. Things did start making sense the more I researched what bipolar really is.Sometimes I think I am still in denial that anything is really wrong. I was diagnosed with severe depression at first and anxiety. None of those meds worked they seemed to make me feel worse. Now I am on 1200mg lithium, 150mg trazodone and 3mg xanax a day. Seems to be working ok. Still have my ups and downs but they don't seem to be as severe as they were. Some days can still get quite "messy' so to speak and I still have a lot of questions as to if what I feel is "normal". I have read some postings that have actually helped. Never tried the gabapentin though. Good Luck!