I see what u are saying but he was not very nice. He said that I was exaggertaing the whole court issue. How can he say that when he has not been in this mess for over two years. When I talked to my t today she felt bad. She said they have a tendency of dealing with court issues with the wrong approach. She was so mad because she had been to almost all of my court hearings and seen all of the documents. She also has spoke to the womens shelter in the city where i used to live and got the run down from them. She has seen the documents from them and the police report when my ex beat me into our wall. My head left a big hole. My t assists women when they go through these things. She knows the legal end inside and out. An example of the justice system; I meant a lovely lady and her son while the kids and I stayed at the womens shelter here in red deer. We became close and I adored her son. I have a picture of us and keep it close by at all times. Her ex managed to get in the first set of doors at the shelter one night. He grabbed one of the clients that were trying to get in. He threatened that if they did not let him in; he would kill this lady. Of course the police were phoned and they took him away. But they released him. He was constantly hanging around the shelter and threatening her life as well as their son. About six months later; he got into their home; shot my friend, then their son; and killed himself. After all of the bull he put them through; the police and this so called system; failed to protect them; now they are dead. I still see that little boys face in my mind; I miss them. So when people say that the doc left it up to me; no he failed to listen to my fears. This does happen everyday and these so called professionals need to clue in. He asked me if I think about ending my life; I told him everyday of my existence. I told him that I am trying to destroy myself with my eating disorder and these pills I take. He listened; I told him I need help; I told him that I am willing to get help; when my kids are with dad again. He simply looked at me and said; well make an appointment with me if u like, I don't know when u can get in though. So u tell me; was that not a cry for help; is this justice? Do my kids have to continue to live this way. This is why I am agreeing to let their dad have them. I am tired of this fight and my plee for help. Dont get me wrong, I am not angry at any of the replies from all of you; its opposite of that. I wish I could show all of u the documents I have and u may see what has all happened. I don't want pity and I am not trying to feel sorry for myself. Its my kids that I feel bad for. Me, who cares.....dont want to be here anyway. Maybe then; they could move on. Please excuse my spelling today, my thought process sucks right now. The doors are all closed and i cant get in.
Yes......itsjustme