Hi Sister Rags if I hadn't gotten help and a new job I wouldn't be talking to you now.
I wish I had come here for help but I couldn't and it nearly cost me.

Yes medication was a life saver and I am so in debt to my specialist not my doctors who said stretch my kneck muscles and not to holland and barret as all that stuff did nothing compared to real meds. I put off doctors then specialist incase I was seen etc am I weak I thought for years til I only had one chance left.

Social anxiety is debilitating from overheating not going in warm rooms queues shops meetings sweating and heart racing not sleeping getting up 7 times a night are people talking about you are they judging you you have talked for ten minutes about something you can't remember and you can't leave this situation you need space you need cold water anything cold to calm you down you need blinds closed a million different things.
Yes meds have been a life saver but it took a long time and side effects will pass and each day gets better I deliberately walk into meetings and take charge in total control now and act super confident like I knew I always could but couldn't.
Money is good and good jobs and houses and savings but tonight I helped two woman take 2 minutes off their 10k pb and that felt better than any Lottery win could. And I won that race a few years ago but tonight 16 mins slower I enjoyed realised what's more important.
Alcoholic to t total to smoker to
80 miles a week runner for 5 years to smoking 20 a day in last ten weeks but anyway as I said side effects do lots of crazy things and meds just make things easier the highs lower and the lows higher.

Goodluck and don't smoke lol and if you do get an electronic cigarette a good one :-)



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