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I still hate this. I told him that I was stupid for ever staying in therapy in the first place. I told him that for our first couple of months, I tried to convince myself that I didn't like him. Anything so I wouldn't have to get attached.

I did tell him last session (jokingly) I wanted to hate him.

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Incidentally, I did the same thing to my husband. I saw early on that I could fall for him-- so I tried to convince myself that I hated him. In fact, when we first started dating, my friends would ask what I thought about him. I would say, "Well, he's kind of perfect for me and all.... but I hate him." Like I said-- anything to avoid getting attached. My terms. I told my T about this. About how I have never been broken up with or rejected by a guy before. It has always been on my terms, and my termination.

That's what I love about therapy. The discovery of patterns. However much they hurt... the patterns.