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Old Jun 10, 2014, 07:22 PM
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Sleep - too much, too little, all at the wrong times
Food - too much, too little, all at the wrong times
Hygiene - too much, too little, all at the wrong times
Fear of abandonment
Paranoia - did my Dad try to kill me when I was a baby?
Dissecting old hurts - re-living doomed love affairs
Dwelling on the one point in time that I could return to and "reset" my life
Inability to concentrate
Talking less or not at all
Ignoring or hating people for being happy
Not making eye contact
Hair twisting (used to be pulling but I got over that one)
Self Injury (too much effort right now)
Suicidal thoughts / actions (too much effort right now)
Retreating to my fantasy world (too much effort right now)
Expecting the worst
Loss of hope
Sense of impending doom
Staying at home, in my room
Anger, frustration - too much effort right now
Anhedonia
Belief that I am dead and in hell
Worthlessness
Guilt
THAT voice in my head that won't shut up, it tells me that I deserve this, I have no choice other than to suck it up because this is for eternity, it can't and won't get better.
Fatigue
Pain - just about everywhere / everything hurts
A sensation of suffocation and crushing
Extreme loneliness and fear of loneliness

I too could go on - too much effort right now. I think I need to print out this list to show my doctor though, so this thread has been helpful to me, thank you.

Also it is reassuring to know that it isn't just me, other people have unusual symptoms too.
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Thanks for this!
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