Hello, Joe. Do you know why you are finding it difficult to pray? Why do you think the panic attacks are the cause of the difficulty?

I have thought a lot about God because of my own disorders. Sometimes, I wonder why an all-loving God does not provide relief in response to my prayers. I feel abandoned. I get angry with God.

It comes down to faith - whether to trust in God and in his actions and promises. If one has faith, trying to understand the why of our circumstances gives way to the belief that God is looking after us.

Despite my frailties, I plod on.