((((Porcelain)))) and all of the others who use drugs,

I can understand very well. I do not use drugs anymore ~ I did through my childhood and teenage years, and then I switched methods of making myself feel better. It's still a crutch. A meaningless high to most other people (and sometimes to myself) ~ but one that I sure as hell do NOT want to give up!!

It's always something ~ always. That "'thing" could be weed, alcohol, money, sex, etc. Whatever it is....where there is a will, there is a way. Some things are more socially acceptable than others. What matters is the intensity level. And we, my friends, are pretty freaking intense. That's our problem.......

I've had periods of time that I could do without a release of some kind, but I've never been without for very long. Don't know if that helps any of you feel less alone or more doomed, sorry if it's the latter of the two. Really!