Following a mixed manic episode in Feb, I slid into depression. Was inching back to normality... then pdoc cut back my lithium because it was causing high blood calcium. Now I am in freefall depression. I feel so stupid even writing these words- but I just need some encouragement. I have a husband and five kids and they need me. I'm just crashing so fast I need to stop or I'm worried I'll end up back in hospital. Thanks and sorry for rambling... right now I feel so alone.