*** I don't know if this is the best place to post this, but anyway ... ***

I feel like I never left high school. I mean that very seriously. It never ends.
I see six groups of people:

1. Authority figures I trust and like and want to make proud
2. Authority figures who scare me and whom I just want to avoid as much as possible
3. The majority of people, whom are pretty cool, I like them overall, but I don't expect to find much in common with in the end, so I have to kind of cautious around them
4. The vulnerable people I desperately want to protect, but can't
5. The cool people I really really admire and feel I have a lot in common with, but I don't expect to ever be a part of their world, much to my despair
6. Very unpleasant people shall we say ...who tend to be quite powerful at least within their cliques, and can seemingly get away with anything

There is a seventh group ... me ... you wouldn't want to be in that group, because it makes you want to exile yourself to a deserted island far from anywhere (perhaps Fantasy Island of Misfit Toys?) and sometimes contemplate feeding yourself to the sharks so as to improve the general quality of planet Earth.

And that's basically how I feel all the time. It never ends. I have had nightmares about this stuff sometimes. And it gets me very depressed. Meds don't work on this at all.