I had my first official day in ED outpatient clinic. It was an exhausting day. I had different things from 11am until 4pm. The group wasn't as bad as I thought it would be although I never got up the nerve to say anything. It was nice to be able to relate to other people for once. I see the nutritionist next week so that involves getting a meal plan from what I understand.

I'm honestly having a really bad night and can't sleep. My ED side of me just won't seem to shut up if that makes any sense. I don't feel like I deserve to be in treatment because I'm not at my worst or I'm not sick enough.

I'm just having the best of luck right now on coping. I decided ok maybe some support chat will help. Bad idea the topic was weight and how to lose it etc.