I feel this way a lot. I just kind of force myself to keep on going. For instance my so decided he doesn't care if he caused me so much stress it affected my heart and lungs. He just wants to hurt me. To cope I just block it out. If you do move, I think, problems may follow from where you are. That's why I haven't. Though I can't exactly say I'm a pro at dealing with emotions anymore. I used to be a fortress with strong walls and now I'm a pile of loose sticks haha. Anyway I think it might help if you found a new hobby. For me it might be investigating war hammer 40k. I got curious about it. Find something you haven't experienced before (something small to start) and experience it! You'll bond with others who share the hobby or interest as you cross paths!