I am planning to go to a doctor this octomber. I know its very late I should go right this instant but i dont trust the doctors here(they say i have stress. i so do not have stress)so im going to london and i keep thinking how i will be after starting medication. how would i look....its not only the side effects of the meds the doctor will give me. its me. would i change very much?i know i will stop talking to myself and keep thinking awful things but i suppose its more. Any one out there that agrees with me?