Thanks.

Just feel stuck.

Not even sure if offloading does any good anymore. Been almost 2 weeks since my gp said he'd refer me to a psychiatrist but still not heard anything and I don't have the will or motivation to go back to the doctors to ask if it was refused or just in the process of a long wait.

Getting more satisfaction from si and on the + side that is stifling the desire to do anything else (listening to suicidal thoughts)... a small fix that keeps me going. T spoke to me briefly about that, just saying that she wasn't going to condone or condemn... could understand why some people do it but that she wanted me to be careful, keep it clean and then told me a story about one person she knew who was excessive... the dangers that came with it (such as too deep) and that it turned her skin to leather.

Feel a bit in limbo right now... don't particularly want to live but neither do I particularly want to die.

pfft

All just seems pointless at present.

Oh, re redundancies.... I'm keeping my job but they've accepted my proposal of reduced hours which will kick in at the beginning of next month.