Hang in there. I know faking is exhausting and hard. Keep looking up there has to be a better solution than suicide. You are loved here. Could you maybe go to the ER? I'm getting worried about you. PM me if you need to. I'll be on all day. Thinking of you. And call your T again and tell them it's an emergency. Stay safe.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
"Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha