I don't trust docs either. I'm very careful how I say things. I see a Pdoc for the first time in about a week and half. It's very stressful. But I try not to think of it til my alarm goes off that day to remind me. I know it may take few tries to find meds that work for me. Do u? Do u have someone at home who can be there with u when u do the meds to see if they change u for better or worse? Will they know the side effects that mean stop taking immediately? I will not read the side effects my partner will. If I read them it's more likely I have those bad side effects but it will all be in my head.

Do u have someone who can do this for u?