Okay, so many about 6 months ago. I started having thoughts about suffocating my mom with a pillow. Just the thought of it disgusts me. But I don't know what should I do. I know myself, before I commit such an act I would jump out the window first. But I can't stop thinking about it, such a bother. The thoughts just aggravates my anxiety.

I am so afraid that I might be a serial killer in the making.