Well... you already did something, Pisces22... you posted here on PC... that's something! I know we're not like real-life persons... but we're not a bad substitute either. I know that feeling of just wishing you could scream the despair out of yourself. I always feel like there is a toe-curling scream that is lodged somewhere deep within my psyche &, if I could just let it out, all would be well. Posting here on PC may be a poor substitute for such an earth-shaking screech... but it does help. So keep posting. I do hope you begin to feel better soon.