You remind me a little of my daughter, who sometimes feels anxious about going to sleep.

"I can't do it."

"I'm trying and it just doesn't work!"

"Honey," I say, "you don't need to 'do' anything, just be still. It's all right."

All you need to do is sit in front of your computer, just sit there and answer the video call when it comes. You don't need to feel a certain way, act a certain way, say certain things. You just show up, and it'll be fine.

And you are very brave to be doing therapy. Remember.... you already have that bravery.