I know it could lower peoples general chances of survival, not so sure if it would increase or lower my chances...don't really care. I guess point is I almost hope that happens even though I know all the chaos, destruction and violence that could go on(not that it doesn't already go on a lot in some places in the world). Maybe its just that at least if that happens, there is the off chance maybe a new sort of society would take over....maybe a better one. The way things are going now seems like it can only go down hill, just don't see it being fixed. Not to mention I constantly worry I'll get kicked off SSI and/or medicaid just any way I slice it I either keep getting low income, magically get rid of my mental issues so I can work or end up eventually losing SSI and ending up who knows where....just feels like life is going nowhere, will continue to go nowhere.

I know I have depression and PTSD and anxiety but I don't think its all in my head because realistically is this society really improving in any real way? I see remarks about my 'generation' being lazy, unappreciative s***ts essentially perhaps a lot are catching on to what we actually have to look forward to.....it just looks bleak is all. Maybe this is just a bunch of jumbled rambling not even sure my point exactly...does anyone relate to any of that or get so fed up you'd just rather see it all burn than hope it will improve?