Not really sure how today is, actually. I think something is terribly wrong, but I don't know what. I saw my t this morning. I had to get a new one - the one I liked is on maternity leave and I actually kind of hate this one. Anyway, I'm REALLY agitated. And my anxiety is through the roof. But I'm also...just...off. This is going to sound strange, but I'm trying to decide if I'm sui or not. You'd think I'd be able to tell, but I honestly can't. Trying to decide if I should hotline myself or something since I'm home alone for the next 3 days and don't even have to be at work til tomorrow night. Managed to eat something this afternoon for the first time since Sunday. I had a tortilla. It was miserable. I've felt like this before and always pulled through so maybe a hotline call is overreacting. Sigh.