It is really common for people like us to self-medicate. My pdoc was not shocked when I drank a pint of gin at one sitting. It made me sick as hell but I was "treating" insomnia that way.
Certain substances are legal in my state & that helps me sleep, too. Lack of sleep is my main indicator that I'm going super manic.
I am 61 & have never been hospitalized. I have an extreme fear of being hospitalized. I've been so manic that I've heard the moon talking to me, gone outside & climbed to the tops of trees at 3 a.m. & not been hospitalized. Before I got diag., spring & summer were when I was super manic & I survived somehow.
After diag. at age 46, it took around 5 years to get me on the rights meds. My pdoc, after treating me for a little over a year, told me to raise dosages myself to help me sleep since insomnia for long periods of time can cause hallucinations
Only you know when things are getting too bad. I'd say not showering for longer than 3 days, forgetting to eat for longer than 4 meals & not sleeping for more than 4 hours/night for longer than a week---together, all those say it's time for serious help
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Originally Posted by usehername
Unfortunately, my doctor won't see me any sooner no matter what's going on. I stopped messing with the meds but then I just slept 4 hrs a night on the best night, 1 on the worst. I don't have anyone that will come with me next week, so it'll have to be my blog that talks for me. The only trick is I don't write much like this because I get too busy. With the help of a substance I won't mention (legal in my state) I was finally able to get a good nights sleep after a little hallucination. I agree that it's not fair to my mother, especially since she's already taking care of my sister the same way, but I have been able to take care of my child except in the home schooling department. We've gotten behind there. We're doing Better today since last nights activities have slowed me down some. I can't really go to the er because if they decide to lock me up there's no one to take care of my daughter, which is why my mother would stop me if I tried. So far I haven't done anything TOO stupid so I think I'm Ok for now.
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