So I'm new to this "online support" but I thought I would give it a try. My family knows I'm bipolar II and so do some friends but NO ONE at work or anywhere else knows and I get very upset when people find out my "secret" I'm sooooo exhausted pretending 2 be happy all day at work and pretending 2 be happy w my friends and pretending 2 be happy for my family so they don't worry about me. But it's getting harder and harder 2 pretend, I feel sad and lonely all the time even with friends and family. I'm really "weepy" everytime im bored I have 2 stop myself from crying. Ive been on Meds and therapy once a week since January but I feel like telling them 2 F*** off because I'm still so sad and at least b4 the Meds I had some highs. Now I'm more even keeled (sp?) but it seems like me being even is me being depressed. I don't know why I can't just be happy I have everything I need but for some reason all I feel is lonely and blue. I just needed 2 vent.