Sometimes I feel the same way, but for the most part things have changed. I suddenly felt so cornered and that I had nowhere to hide. I broke, and it had to come out, all of it. And trust me, some of the reasons for how I feel the way I do are super embarrassing, but I just don't care anymore.

You should try to force yourself to be open and honest about it. I think you'll find that people will respond the same way, and most will want to help you if you just ask