I know how you feel. I worked myself up real good one time grieving over how great I *used* to be. It made me soooo sad!

There's ups and downs, when I'm down I try to remember what I have overcome. I can now drive-relaxed and carefree!! After 3 long years of being terrified to drive. After 6 years, I hardly ever obsess about my breathing anymore.

I started gardening again, despite me really not wanting to, but now I'm surprised that I"m getting a lot of joy out of it.

Sorry, I'm not trying to make this reply about *me*, just kind of an example of one person that is getting better, slowly! So have hope,. there's more of us out there!!

take care
Jen