Just a little non-update here: I'm feeling pretty low and lonely right now. My grandma died last night, and that would be hard enough to deal with on its own. But, I have developed anxiety now, I think - my stomach's tied up in knots, I can't eat, my heart always feels like it's pounding - just from waiting on him. It's been five days - and each day I lose some hope for my relationship. I think I'm probably just waiting on a breakup.