All of my therapists have spared me the actual dx of BPD, but it's totally me. None of my other diagnoses account for all of my symptoms, particularly the severe dissociation and paranoid ideation, let alone jumping straight to suicidal if someone challenges me on the wrong thing, even if I was fine a minute before.

I'm also working full-time and in my last year of classes before my internship as a therapist. Wow, that's scary, especially after the last several weeks when I've been slipping downhill pretty fast.

Usually I manage to contain my garbage, at least while I'm acting in a professional role. I think that my other personality disorders temper the BPD symptoms a lot too. Dependent personality disorder includes the tendency to appease people and smooth things out rather than risk losing a relationship by acting out, so I swallow my rage and turn it inward. Avoidant personality disorder includes the fear of not being liked or accepted, so that also encourages me to keep it in to be afraid of showing outward symptoms that would be inappropriate and get me rejected (well, most of the time - there is a point where I don't care anymore).

You're in good company here.