So...met with her today.

She said she isn't willing to offer a discounted rate because I take up too much time outside of session, and my insurance has been grossly under paying her (currently $87.50 instead of $120, and for a portion of this year, the rate was $75.)

She was rather hostile today...angry. She's also mad at my insurance for terminating her and doesn't know if shes willing to do a special contract with them for me. I still want to see her (I don't know why...)

But a serious issue here is that I can be very vindictive. I know that about myself. If she really does this, I'll probably fight against that bad part of me for awhile, but ultimately I'll end up filing some sort of report against her with intent to have her suspended or license revoked. And I think I have enough "proof" that I could really destroy her career, and I know if I did it I would hate myself for it..but I'd still do it.

I want to talk to her about it, but I can't bc it will come out sounding like a threat and she will be even less likely to want to see me if she knows I keep thinking about it.