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Sometimes this is so discouraging. has anyone managed to get their life back? Hold a job? Have energy to ride a bike? go dancing? Have a clear head? sleep at night? I wonder if this last episode I have had is more about griefing the loss of a life than anything else. It feels like life is over. How do you get that zest back again? i tell myself to volunteer, exercise whatever. Can't even get there.

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(((((((Froggie))))))) I can relate. No I am not working and keep making excuses for not volunteering. I try to exercise. I take care of my mother's doctor's appointments (she's 85). But everything is so hard to do especially mornings. Black. Anxious. Most of the stuff I manage to do is afternoon/evening. I get jealous when I see someone doing office work even at the vet's today with my cat.......I used to be an assistant to a VP and now couldn't even get a job working in a vet's office.

And I also did not mean to make this all about me ! We will get better - one step at a time. Just know you are not alone.