Hi there,

I hope you're doing well. I think that your inability to study might be your way of coping by avoiding studying altogether; I would encourage you to take small steps in the direction that you want to go. Once you start making more and more small and positive changes you will be less likely to avoid situations or resort to maladaptive daydreaming.

I know a book which might be useful if you want to explore your thoughts and behaviors in order to have a better understanding of yourself; the book is called "Mind Over Mood" by Dennis Greenberger and it is a bestseller so it should be easy to acquire. This book teacher Cognitive Behavioral Therapy which helps you understand how your thoughts and behaviors are all related.

Unfortunately I cannot give you any diagnoses, since they would likely to wrong.

I hope you find the peace and joy that you are looking for.

Kindest Regards.