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Originally Posted by freefallin
I don't have suicidal thoughts so much as nonexistent thoughts, if that makes any sense. I don't want to kill myself, and I'm too chicken to kill myself. Sometimes I wish I could just cancel my existence, though, because it seems like there is literally no way out of my problems and I'm just stuck. I have never conveyed these thoughts to any therapists because I am afraid they would hospitalize me even though I know for a fact I wouldn't actually do anything and don't have plans or anything. Would be helpful to get it off my chest, but I'm too scared of having more control taken from me than I've already lost.
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I feel that a post I made earlier in this thread is relevant to yours... I'lle quote myself..
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Originally Posted by Momentofclarity
Everyone gets suicidal thoughts once in their life. In my hospital (and I am quite sure they do the same in the whole country and most hospitals in eu and na) they rate depression in this way..
1. Thinks about suicide once in a while..
2. Thinks it might be nice to not live but doesn't actually want to die.
3. Wants to commit suicide.
4. Have plans to commit suicide.
If any of the 2-4 best correspond to your feelings you should get proffessional help imo. If 3-4.. consider a suicide hotline.. if 4... please call a suicide hotline asap...I personally beg you.
Hope my comment doesn't affect anyone negatively.
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If i remember correctly you also get to choose 1.5, 2.5, 3.5 if that would make a difference. The point is anyway that in my country the hospitals really
do see a difference between wanting to disappear , or "cancel ones existence" or such... and actually wanting to kill yourself... it's also another thing to have plans for it. I've never been hospitalised and I've admitted at least that I have suicidal thoughts to doctor.
Giving your doctors the truth gives them a better chance to treat you correctly. If you really don't want to tell the truth maybe give understate a few parts... maybe that will it easier to tell the whole truth later...
Just a thought..I am no doctor...
