I'm so sorry you're going through this, and you're not going crazy. It's totally natural, after a long relationship, to have those flash backs. I ended my months ago...have not contacted him but still, once in awhile it creeps up on me. Memories we shared...the last time I saw him...last kiss...everything, for no reason at all and I feel like I'm right back where I was. I miss him too. But.....after the 'flutterbyes' are over, I realize I'm still here...where I need to be and that it's just one more step away from him. That's why it sometimes feels scary.

It's been only a few months for you...please don't be so hard on yourself. You're doing wonderfully, you have to keep telling yourself that, and you deserve someone who loves you, and who won't leave you. All the things you've done thus far to distract and move on ARE working...its just that our minds sometimes are wired to look back...in moments of stress (sometimes we don't even know we're stressed) or just in moments of recognition that it HAS been months.

Hang in there. It does get better, I promise.