I agree with others in that being "non-existent" is better than living, struggling each day just to get by or going through the motions of being alive. Thinking about the ways of committing scare me though. And if I did attempt suicide and wasn't "successful," I'm guessing my life would be worse off than before. Plus there's the thoughts of the few people who do care about me, how would they feel? How would it affect my elderly mother who is also alone and depends on me?

When I go to bed, it would be nice to never wake up again. Or how about an airplane hitting my house, tornado or hurricane killing me, or a vehicle crossing my path?

While I may be too scared to actually commit the act of suicide, I do wish daily my life would cease to exist. I'm just so tired of going through life the way it is now.