Dear Louise,
my first advice would be to jsut take it a day at a time.
You can only do so much worrying.
The evaluation will be done and the results will be held confidential to only those with a need to know. Your immediate boss.
If you are rapid cycling now then maybe your meds are not right for you....only your pdoc and you can work this out.
I am really sorry that you are going thru this much stress.
I hope you have some supportive family members, sometimes we have to ask for support.
That we need help.
Having a mental illness unfortuantely has its own set of stigmas...we must fight for our rights.
I really wish this chaos slows down for you.
((((HUGS))))
bizi