wow~ That must have been terrifying for you. hopefully you have a good support system to help you care for your new baby and any other young ones in your care.

I would never advise someone not to go to the hospital if they are in need but I am a bit confused on why you would choose the hospital over a psychologist for self care. I think if you do go to the hospital they will suggest therapy as well because it's just a quick fix for them. You need someone to help you work through your experience.