Hey Waiting4,
Thank you for you insight on my relationship. The suggestions you've made I've actually tried. Tried to get him to understand that I am looking for a job and I'm trying to show him how much I appreciate him. I love him, don't get me wrong but bake of how bad my depression has gotten I'm worried I'm going to leave him and once I'm slightly in a better frame of mind I will regret it. My medications don't work and he doesn't believe in any psychological issues anyway. He thinks you just do things and get over it. I think that means you end up holding it in.
Again, thank you.