Thank you all so much. I want to reply to each of you, but I am actually starting my cleanup. Did the dishes. There weren't actually many, but they had been there a while. Just knowing I'm not along helps, and I read all your suggestions. I plan to get back with each of you, but got to go finish my kitchen

It seems like a dumb thing to people who don't have depression I guess, but from your replies, you know what it feels like to be at the bottom of that deep dark pit. Thanks again!