went to my therapist today. she wanted to discuss my mom but i just couldnt handle it so we tipped in it a bit but not really. i told her ive been drinking alcohol with my meds and she just said be careful and that i should let my pdoc know. all my pdoc asks is if i have a problem. i dont have a ProbleM. i just drink. then we talked about my lowered libido which i was glad we talked about and she googled it but she said she couldnt find anything about it from haldol in women but only in men. then i told her i bought a playgirl book from barnes and nobles.

now what im saying fits in with my libido because i can...i can start to masturbate but i cant finish a lot lately. she also said to speak to my doctor about this but im so nervous to but i suppose i will. or i will TrY.

then we talked about how i cant accept that i have an illness. and gave me some homwork to write down what i want to change about myself and what i want to accomplish and to set some goals next time i come in.