Hi Froggie. Hang in there. I know how discouraging it can be. I got my life back, though, and for a long time I thought I never would. I got a physical illness in 2000 and then became severely agoraphobic and was totally housebound for over 4 years. I became well enough to go back to work eventually, though, and even though I was still having panic attacks, I started getting my life back little by little... and the panic attacks came less and less frequently. I went into a major depression at one point... I think part of it was grieving all the time I had lost, but I feel like I'm putting that behind me now. I have my career back on track now (I'm ahead of where I was before I got sick), I went travelling this summer, I'm earning a good salary and starting to see a way out of the debt that spiralled out of control while I was too sick to work, I'm socializing and dating again, having fun again, feeling more and more like my former self... and if you had told me 2 years ago that I would EVER feel good again, I wouldn't have believed it. It was a struggle to get my life back and I still have bad days, I still get down sometimes and there are frustrations and setbacks, but it is SO worth it. Please don't give up hope. I know it's hard, but keep fighting the fight. There is a light at the end of the tunnel... and what I've found about this light is that I appreciate it so much more than I ever did before... because I spent such a long time in the dark.