Hello jimmy, welcome to Psych Central.

I'm really sorry for your loss, grief is so hard. How long ago did she die and under what circumstances? Are you able to share with us more?

Here is a article on the 5 stages of loss and grief, some parts may be skipped and may come in a different order. The 5 Stages of Loss and Grief | Psych Central

Grieving is a personal process and there is no right or wrong way to do it but if it is interfering in your life to the extent that you feel you have lost interest in life, please go and see your doctor. Grief counseling can be very helpful.