Nobody here hates you! It is your depression making you feel the way you do and making you thing that people hate you.

I believe that you did the right thing with your pregnancy. Like you said you also have your other children to consider. You made the decision that was right for you. That is all we can ever do.

itsjustme when you feel this badly and desparate (it sounds from your last few posts like your mind has been racing with issues) I really urge you to get some immediate attention... try calling a hotline or having someone come over. Get in touch with your T if you can, and by calling a hotline, at least how it works when I have called, they can help just talking and they won't force you to go to the hospital if you don't want to. If you are worried about that then ask them when you call. Also consider if there comes a time when the hospital might be the right thing to do. Think about the possiblitily of your children losing you forever, wouldn't the hospital be a better solution?

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