I agree w/ Parley. You're having flashbacks of a great trauma your mind & body went thru.
I was on Zoloft for my 3 kids & the only side effect of the kids was they came out groggy, not the usual kicking & crying. They are quiet babies till the Zoloft wore off. I had some trouble breast feeding bec they fell asleep a lot.
I think you really need to seek out professional trauma help that can help you work thru these thoughts & feelings esp post partum. Get some help so you can take care of your new little one.
PM me if you like. Best of luck.

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