I am so sorry. People who have been hurt tend to hurt others. That doesn't make them good or bad, it just makes them human. Have you ever heard the phrase "Hurt people, hurt people". It means that those who have been hurt, tend to be the ones who hurt other people.

I don't think your T will see you as bad for that. I think she will see you as a hurting child who didn't know how else to handle their pain, except in the way they were taught, which was to hurt others.