Over the weekend I was incredibly hyped and feeling too positive, my gf told me I had went hypomanic which I refused to believe. As the week goes on I am constantly on my feet trying to get things done only for me to over think and get really stressed and too exhausted to perform the tasks which is driving me nuts coz I've started and need to keep going! And I keep getting distracted and starting something else, I've went from hyped up to wanting to cry because my body can't keep up with my brain. This is the first time I've felt I have identified being in a mixed episode (been up and down for about a week now) it's so weird being amped up but feeling like there is no point in the energy. I don't like this. At all.

I am on no meds at the moment and have stayed away from weed to ease the stress of my financial situation. I think this was unwise as my mind is left to wander and I don't think people are taking me too seriously when I tell them I'm having thoughts that make me feel connected to the spectral plain and that I'm a medium or some nonsense (by this I mean they think it's a case of don't be so silly but that's not easy). Been kinda left to put up with it myself which isn't easy because it's hard to not start believing these things when nobody wants to talk it through with you because they find it weird and think if I know it's real why is it a bother?
The answer because it just bloody is.
And the fact I'm irritable as hell does not help lol
This almost makes the solo depression seem not as bad lol.