Somehow, I've narrowly escaped hospitalization (and jail) too, but I'm not sure how because there were many times when I was very dangerous... .. Had paranoid delusions, hallucinations... Many things I'm not proud of happened

and this was all while on meds!
I can completely get this

Put a ticker at the bottom of your page saying you have seven more days until pdoc.
How often do you have pdoc appointments normally? Can you get your child into daycare through your state so you can do a partial hospitalization program?