I'm sorry InACorner. I know what you mean about surrounding yourself with SI too. I have a hard time and felt so screwed up after watching Intervention when it was on a cutter. It was so nice to see the blood flow again. I hate myself for wanting it so much. I just want you to know you're not alone. It doesn't make us bad people for wanting it. We have just conditioned ourselves to use SI as a coping mechanism. It seems like there is such a fine line between seeing enough to help us cope and seeing to much to trigger us. I'm really sorry your boyfriend is also making this especially hard for you.

Try to hang in there. You can always try again. And you can always talk to us

((((((((((hugs)))))))))