This pretty much. I don't know about you but I'm ashamed of how I must appear and I'm ashamed of who I am... been a matter of course throughout my life to not talk, not express, not show weakness... and yet as you quite aptly put, I am ashamed that even though most of my thoughts are just that... I am the opposite to the strong person that I should be... the one that takes everything on the chin, overcomes obstacles and doesn't worry. Someone who is thinking of others rather than wrapped up in my own head mewling like a child