Thanks for your ideas. I'm just really terrified that I'll be hospitalized anyway because, in my experience, there are a lot of doctors out there who don't follow the rules in terms of when they're "supposed" to hospitalize patients. For instance, my little sister pulled out of the driveway screaming that she was going to kill herself in front of the cops, and her doctor still didn't hospitalize her. We thought she was finally going to be forced to get help, and the doctors and the cops agreed to just send her back home. Meanwhile, I went to a psychologist for anxiety attacks a few years ago, and she told me her suggestion was to admit myself into a psychiatric hospital...for run of the mill anxiety attacks. I told her I didn't want to do that, and she told me that she hopes my dad forced me into hospitalization then (I was 20 years old, but I lived in his house, so she said he could force me into hospitalization if he wanted). That scared the heck out of me, so now I'm just really careful with what I say around anyone who has the power to put me in the hospital.