My work is so triggering. I even took a two month medical leave to do intense treatment for my PTSD and reintegrate back into work. Now I'm back at work and I swear it's even worse than when I left. My boss, who is the Executive Director, and the HR Director, who both know I am diagnosed with PTSD, Major Depressive Disorder, and Panic Disorder, seemed to do everything possible to be inconsiderate, unsympathetic, and confrontational on my first day back. They triggered me so badly, even though I was trying my CBT techniques, I had to call my therapist and ask for an emergency appointment. Fortunately, he had my regular time open.

When I met with him we talked about the job and I finally accepted, with great relief, that maybe it's just time to let this job go. I've tried very hard to make it work at this place (and I haven't had these issues at other places), but unfortunately our HR person and our Executive Director just have 1) no clue how to deal with HR and 2) our HR person is super passive aggressive and likes to gaslight and she's just like my mother, who abused me through my whole childhood and basically caused this PTSD.

I felt such great relief yesterday when I decided it was time to start looking for other opportunities. Even just the idea of looking made me feel empowered. I worked hard during medical leave to make my home a safe place that I even feel comfortable inviting people into, not making it a secret place. I'm not going to go work for 9 hours a day in a mentally unsafe environment...I won't survive.

So yes, work can be extremely triggering, especially since there are so many triggering a$$holes out there.

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