I agree with ThisWayOut, BPD is not a diagnosis you want to go looking for...in most cases.

Also, symptoms of BPD overlap with other conditions: PTSD, Bipolar, other personality disorders... Even people who aren't diagnosed with mental health condition experience some BPD symptoms. BPD can present in over 200 different ways. I would not suggest trying to diagnose yourself with it.

I have BPD. Everyone has known since I was 18. But NO ONE wanted to give me that diagnosis. When I found my current Pdoc and T, I demanded they assess me and give me my true diagnosis. Even they didn't want to diagnose me with BPD. I had very good reasons to seek the truth which is the only reason why both my Pdoc and T agreed to assess me. Because of all the work I've put into therapy, I no longer suffer from all the symptoms of BPD. So now, I have Borderline Traits.

I think the most important thing is that you find something that helps. You also need to put in 100% effort into getting help. It's difficult, but necessary if you want to see change. Part of that is being honest with your T about your thoughts. It's like going to a medical doctor. How can s/he treat a broken bone if you don't tell her/him?

Whether you have BPD, Bipolar, PTSD, etc., they all have treatment that does work. What I learned is that the professionals need to determine what % of your symptoms are chemical and what % are reactivity. Chemical = medication. Reactivity = therapy. Most of my symptoms are based on reactivity. But some can be and are being improved by meds.